Written by my friend.-M.Y.

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i don't want you to be away

i don't want you stagger on the street

i don't want to lose in love

and you as well

Show me your heart and weakness

so that i can convince myself

to forgive you

Give me your final breathe

so that i can forget the past

to accept a new you

Don't fool your heart,baby

Don't hide yourself

Do feel my tears

Do love me forever

dictionary

  today was chinese exam,err…wad could i say,mine is hopeless,i wrote about 800 words,but i even dunno wad i was talking about. aiya,i suddenly felt that eng essays are easier to write.haiz.Besides this, Sth that is very embarrasing happened just before the exam.shiwen asked me for help to pass the dictionary to Andre,then i was lk seeking him everywhere including the female toliet,but i still cannot find this fat chicken.Only 5mins left to the exam,there is no choice for me,i had to ask jenkin for help,oh,my god,that's damn stupid,i was trying to speak softly and smile just treating him as a normal friend. However,this is not idealization,his attitude to me made me feel the power of a real bitch….. I failed to forget all those pasts,but he can take it so easy,his eyes told me"hey,u r just a toy of mine,nothing more" am i really so valueless in ur heart?I keep asking myself this question and all doubts come to me,none of his actions can even certain a small thing-that he still regards me as a good friend.I used to think that is not important,but my love for him is always retained in my mind and my soul. I admit i was flirt long time before,but since he told he would hold my heart carefully and treasured it,i decided to change myself,and i made it!i really devote in this love,continuously……But wad i got at last?only pain and disappointments.How can i forget him completely?maybe it's impossible forever……

Exams are coming

uhg…….a word that everyone is scaried of …."exams" dunno why schs lk to hold exams and tests. they enjoy baffling us and see us suffering from notes. Unanimously, everyone started to study and as a result, the whole sch was immersed in deadly stillness.sighs,even those who played basketball on the court also slacked off, not felt lk moving.i am always thinking that what's the sense of exams? Enforcing us to study?but study should be full of happiness and fun,rite?not those questions that make us struggle. i know it's good for us to do these so that we can improve our ablity to solve problems.However,in the future,do we still need know the formular of p=mv,and ironization energy?That is meaningless to spend lots of time striving for a good grasp and thorough understanding,cos even the teacher didn't understand what they were talking about and teaching. They told us to raise questions and asked them,but if we think u r able to help us,then we can understand all these in the first place instead of frowning.The point is the teacher is also a student, they cannot teach properly. There is an example that can show how hardworking they are(ms ang),but seeming that all the efforts are thrown to the winds,no reflection on students' grades. Hey,teachers,pls stop for a while and have a look at ur poor students, we are confusing about wad u taught and suffering from ur notes.

I got sick these days,very serious,my temperature was like the heater,got higher and higher.But since i am a very positive person,i continued having lessons with 39degrees.sighs…i was so pro that time,but after this,my head was burnt and my eyes were totally red.I should not parade my superiority and there is no good for me to refuse to go to the hospital. Honestly, i am afraid of hospitals and doctors. Remember that when i was in china,i even felt to puke when i smelt the mixture of all kinds of medicine.Now i am wondering wad the main reason caused my fever,flu?seemed not,cos the medicine to cure the flu doesn't work on me at all.So……the reason must be psychology.The depression and pressure made me edgy,thus,i got high tem.However,i was not clouded and indistinct in mind,i still can recognise my friends and greet to them.Besides all these,there is one thing made me feel even worse,that is jenkin's cold attitude. I bet he knew i was sick,but he was so stingy to ask me wad happened…..I really got nothing to say……if a couple broke up once,does it mean they will be enermies for the whole life,let alone whose fault it is,if he still loves me,at least he should treat me as a normal friend.Even though,his reaction has clarified the distance between two of us. I am really hopeless in love,but i hope meimei and andre won't come to this situation forever…….They both love each other deeply and hold faith in everything. Whatever happens,they can always hug tightly and encourage each other to make it through. That is the value of true love,both of you are so lucky to get this experience. Treasure it……

btw,my earliest blog is still there,the blogspot one,if u r bored,go and read la,but dunt ask me anything,please,hehe

I still failed to do it

  This is some feelings i never got,this is a pain i cannot stand,i failed to ignore him,failed to forget him. When i saw andre's blog,can't help looking at his. when i am in sch,can't help staring at him. i said i hated him,and i also cursed him, but i never really done all this in my heart. I try to hide myself,i really did. But so difficult to hide the feelings. i still oncern about him every moment. but he never did so since we broke up. how could him forget me so fast?just because of her??

  My heart is bleeding, tears lost its value already,when things will come to an end,when?

haha

  that's an interesting bet,hehe,just as what i told andre,i hope he could be very flirt,then i will win and …….haha,someone knew……but,seriously,if i lose……eh,not dare to think about the result,hehe.

  Now,i really feel better,cos of chicken,meimei,daniel and even jiajun,haha,life is like that,chaning everyday,u never able to tell what will happen the next second,but anyway,that won't make us bored at least,rite?

 In my memories,my first tear drop is cos of physical pain,but this time,my pain was in heart,it's more than a cut on wrist. All i have given just like a stream flown farther away.Every single word that i pretended to ignore is ironed in my mind……It's not me that weak,that stupid,instead, so faithful in love.Sense of losin love is not grieved,but betrayal of trust is deadly.

 When can i really find the one truely love me,when can i meet the one firmly stay with me,when can i find the one continually cheer me? I seek for an answer from God, but she only leaves me a X,that is an unknown number,that is an endless waiting

 My heart is bleeding,my soul is suffering and my life is freezing 

caitlin’s theory

  hehe,that's an interesting theory which is"brothers and sisters will become together",haha,quite reasonable. i remember that when my friends start to chase someone,they always begin the relationship of brother&sister.even myself,but the time i did this is no pupose,pure relationship! but unfortunately,the other side misunderstood,at last,it caused me a series of trouble……haiz,anyway,this theory is still fit for those who are chasing,try this lah=)

  Admiring caitlin,so creative and observing